The Game (This Won't Hurt)
All I ever wanted was to be a part of the conversation
To know that someone was listening to the words I was saying, anywhere
The distance between us will keep us together
Time won't, time can't stand still forever
The game never ends, the bridge always extends

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Everything Gold
Got lost on the way back home
Just wanted to take the back roads
Shaking from the dread, shivering from the cold
I got tired of feeling safe and talking slow
Every step was a dance with hesitance
Everything's gold, everything goes

An out stretched hand is an open promise
It takes more than words to stay honest
Fall in and out of belief
Fade into me

Nothing left to hold me back
Line them all up
Spread them all out
Breathe in, breathe out
Watch them fall down
I put my ear to the ground just to follow the sound
But it only sounds the same, it always sounds the same
Everything's gold, everything goes

When I'm lying in bed
I don't ever sleep
I just close my eyes and wait, wait, wait
Still as a stone
'Till the birds sing low
(you say I'm ok)

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Stand So Tall (feat. Dan Campbell)
Used to believe in stability
Or the thought of being stable
Well, I'm not able
To stay inside the lines (sometimes)
Details and numbers
Swallowed up my insides
And it starts to slip away

I found safety in the taste of the ground
Why do we fall down?
You always tell me you're just waiting for the fall
If we fall we can claw our way out
I'd rather crawl than stand so tall

I just want to see the finish line
Just want to see the other side
But I'm not able
Stuck between the past (some times) and the future tense
Balance on the precipice
And it starts to slip away

I wish I could refuse to cave in
But it's so easy to pretend I'm brave
When in the end, I'm collapsible at best

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Deconstruct You
Maybe we could start over
Or get back to the beginning at least
Where you said, "Be careful what you wish for,
You just might get what you deserve, what you need."
When you drag your nails across my skin
Sometimes it feels like surgery

I want to deconstruct you, slowly
I want to tear you apart
Piece by brilliant piece
Find the words to remind you, slowly
This is what we need
Piece by brilliant piece

And when I'm staring at the water
I'm only thinking about the shadows underneath
I fumble and fail to find the perfect teeth
If my arms could ever reach that key
But the grooves across the blade don't fit, don't fit to anything
When you drag your nails across my skin
Sometimes it feels like

How long is too long exactly?
If the clock hands are stuck on repeat
I'll give you my hand so you won't drown
But I can't stick around for you to drag me down

I'll watch you deconstruct me, slowly
I'll watch you tear me apart
Piece by brilliant piece
Find the words to remind me, slowly
This is what I need
Piece by brilliant piece

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Undone
If I shouted to the angels would they even know my name?
I'm not alright, on some nights
Fighting the weight of possibilities
Of futures unseen

You say come what may

I'm getting nervous and anxious
Always starved for patience
Pathetic patterns form places of complacence
You say come what may
We don't care, we don't care what may come
We come clean so we can come undone

Mistakes as religion, we're not alright
Then excused by tradition
We're not alright on some nights
Fighting the weight of possibilities
Of futures unseen

Run, run into me
Run out of words to explain
Run like wild horses through the rain

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The Conversation
All I ever wanted was to be a part of the conversation
To know that someone was listening to the words I was saying, anywhere
I was never that good at trying to fit in
I know now, I'd rather be something different, anyways

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Bad Way
Spent last night hating what I'd become
You see, I've been in a bad way
A disconnect from my heart to my tongue
You see, I've been in a bad way
I talk, talk but only hurt the ones that I care about the most
I talk, talk but only push away the things I keep close

I'm going to knock on the door
With my shoulder to the frame
Let me in
Leave the light on the porch
With my shoulder to the frame
I'll make it back somehow, someway
Let me in

I only see the things I want to change
I feel like I am falling
Face to face with my own excuses
I always find the exit to escape
I want, want to make those around me proud
Proud of who I am
Fall, fall asleep soundly, wake up and start again

Hold my tongue just to confess
I'm nowhere near my best
Hold my tongue just to confess
I'm getting closer all the time

All alone is no reason to be scared
I need broken bones and honest air

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Start Again
And when I'm gone, do you stay young in your mind?
Or are you just worried about wasting time?
(And when I'm wrong)
You say it's no fault of mine
But the way you're staring at me
Makes me think otherwise
(Makes me think twice)
Why can't you stay out of my head?
Out of sight doesn't mean I'll ever forget I'm not enough

More than enough
This all adds up

All the trouble that we ignore
Become the keys that open doors
To the backstreets where we get lost
Tell tale signs we try to hide them
Become the ghosts we learn to confide in
I want you inside of my head,
Keep you out of my sight,
Not because I want to forget,
But its too much

I'm not careless when I say
Steps back don't take away
From the fact that you're more than enough
This all adds up

If you push me away, I'll pull you in
Subtle words sink through your skin
If you close the door I'll let you in
If it's over start again

I'm not enough
More than enough, it all adds up

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What A Predicament!
Hold on just to let it go
Cover up just to let it show
Whisper our prayers low
Dig our own graves
We dig them slow
Give and take
But it takes more than I need
Careful contradictions (All the walls I try to break)
Weigh on convictions (All fall down surrounding me)

I'm tired of the ups and downs
I want to find faith in all the sounds
I want to break the cycle

If you can't define it, can you defeat it?
It's not bad luck, if it's always repeated
Come on, come on now
Say it like you mean it
I'm worn out, worn down, wont find faith in all the safe sounds
Careful contradictions (All the walls I try to break)
Weigh on convictions (All fall down surrounding me)

The game never ends, the bridge always extends

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Twenty Centuries of Sleep
The city's hungry
I can feel it in the heat
My stomach's empty
I feel it in my teeth
Heard your voice last night in my sleep
A silhouette of a memory I wish I didn't keep
When the nightmare's over
All that's left behind
Are the same words on repeat:
Carry on, carry on, carry on

Our best laid plans
Are never in our hands
Caught up, cast away
Like curses in the wind
Search a waste of desert sand
Caught up, cast away
Like curses in the wind

I feel the weight of a legacy
It's bearing down on me
Your voice is haunting me
All the time it sings
Same words at night in my sleep
Same words on repeat
It carries on for centuries
I watch the future unfold and truth be told
It caught me clean off guard
Things fall apart, the center cannot hold

Twenty centuries of sleep

With our backs against the wall
We're not caving in
Let the tide meet the shoreline
We can drink it all in

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BRIDGES
I tried to envision unimagined bridges
To span the chasm inside of me
I tried to finish burying all my dreams
I watched them grow in spite of everything
I've been trying to believe
Get back to the beginning
Get back to the start,
I've been trying hard
I've been trying real hard

I want to say darkness is okay
I want to dance inside the grey
I want to believe, I want to say that I tried
To build unimagined bridges into the light

Caught in between what I want and what I need
Define exactly what that means to me
I think I forgot, "this is so much bigger than me"
I've been trying to understand just how to stand
On unstable lines, shifting sands
This is so much bigger than me
I've been trying to believe
Get back to the beginning
Get back to the start,
I've been trying hard
I've been trying real hard

The distance between us will keep us together

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GHOSTS
It’s not death that scares us; it’s the ghosts we cannot see.

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MESSIDONA
I got unholy ghosts with their hands around my neck
A delicate reminder to never forget
To hold my tongue except when I try to pray
I open my mouth, try to breathe words out,
But I’ve got nothing to say

Only skin deep
(The secrets we keep)
Digging into me
(The lives we lead)
Thorn in my side
Getting deeper all the time

I hear voices from the grave whispering my name
Reminding me all the time “we’re only what we leave behind”
I’m gonna, got to get out of here
Yeah, I got to disappear
Learn to live without fear, we’ll all live without fear
I’ll return like a phantom, swallow cities to feel alive
Spit them out when I’m satisfied

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DO WHATEVER YOU WANT
I see horizons and they’re coming in
This time there will be no running
Give me the truth now
I think I can take it standing up
Open your mouth I want inside
I think I can take it standing up
I want your tongue, your heart, your lies

We’re not dying, if we got time to say
We’re not dying, if we got time to say

It used to be simple
“We’re going to make it out alive”
But do you remember those words?
Are they forgotten or ignored?
Like empty bottles on the shore no messages inside
Just a broken home from dreams long before

And I shook hands with the devil
Just to get his story clear
And I would be a liar if I said I’m not afraid
I’m not afraid
Things were easier when we believed we couldn’t die
Well, we still got time
Let’s carve some fucking stars from the sky

No, we’re not dying, ‘cause we got a lot to say

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YOUNCE CREEK
Everything in its place
And I’m getting used to my own skin
This has all happened before and it will happen again
Take me to the mountains
I want to know how much faith I’m going to need
To move them or move anything

The tick, the tock, the time it takes its toll on you
And it pushes you to the brink, it breaks everything you thought you knew

I want to reach that mountaintop
Don’t you stop me before I start

Ten songs for the dead
That they’ll never hear
But I’ll sing them anyways
‘Cause if I don’t, how the hell are we going to remember their names?
If you’re afraid, then that’s just fine
We all need phantoms to keep us up at night

If you sleep soundly, how would you ever know you were ever awake?

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SHARK CAVE
Give me gravity, keep my feet on the ground
Give me sanctuary, I want to be safe and sound
Give me some space, I want to get lost and never get found

A shattered confidence is never a clean break
Grace under pressure is a filthy thing to fake
If you could breathe me in, I think I could breathe you out
Peel back my skin, rip the words right out of my mouth
Hanging jaw left open, all the right words left unspoken

Oh nightmare you never end
Over and over again
I want to look with my eyes and say I am alive
When I am broken

Silence is never golden
It only covers up, leaves room to hide
Things are better broken so you know exactly what’s inside

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STARE INTO THE DARKNESS
We drove from coast to coast
Looking for all the ghosts of the fathers and patriots
We heard about from the past
All we found were hollow hearts and half built homes
Empty pockets and dirty stitches poorly sewn
Constantly my hands are shaking

What’s left of these worn out streets?
They crack, they break under blistered feet
What’s left of where we’re from?

Cut the country in half with wheels
Just to see if she still feels anything
Miles and miles of desperate dreams
Open skies won’t let us sleep
And we stood in rain soaked soil
“Are we proud of where we stand?”
“Are we proud of what we’ve seen?”
‘Cause honestly my hands are shaking
It’s not the reds and blues that make this great
It’s the color that remains when it all fades to gray
It’s when we stare into the darkness and not turn away
That makes me want to stay

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HARSH, HARSH, HARSH
There’s a storm coming in
It’s getting stronger with every mile that it eats

There’s a storm coming in
It’s getting stronger with every mile that it eats
Fueled by the taste of broken defeat
You better run for shelter, I hope you find shelter

And they will come like thieves in the night
Blood on their daggers, smiles on their faces, they are never satisfied
So let them come and let the fire spread
Let our anthem scar the skies:
“We are not the living dead”

I want to suck water out of the clouds
Set fire to all my doubts
Hold mountains in my hand
Crush them into grains of sand
Because if everything I build will surely fall down
I want to be a devastator so they all know that I was around

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YOU’RE A LEGEND, SIR
I’m going to crawl across the desert on my hands and knees
I’m going to drag my body across the sand
Because I’ve been hearing some rumors
About some awful plans that could save me

I will carry this on my back
Don’t ever look down
Won’t let it weigh me down

Now I’m face down on a hotel floor
They took the ground right from under me
I don’t know if I can take much more or what they want from me
Because you give them all you got and all you have
But what they want is more than that
They write you off so eagerly
They eat you up so eagerly

I will carry this on my back
Don’t, don’t ever look down
Won’t let it weigh me down
If I walk they won’t hear a sound
My feet will never touch the ground
Because I am above this

Even with broken necks we won’t rest while we got oxygen in our chests

And the voice I hear is lightning for my ears
Just fire for my fears
So keep on talking, keep on talking

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WHY DON’T YOU JUST RAIN FOR ME?
Sing me to sleep with the songs you keep under the bedroom floor
I will stay awake with every moment that fades
I will sleep no more

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LOST BOYS
It’s not where we are going
Or where we have been
And when we finally get there,
It still won’t be the end
Question everything, let go

Faith is not knowing all the answers and still following them into the dark
It’s why we sing the songs we sing, ‘cause they’re in our hearts
And all the ghosts we can’t see, honestly, they don’t mean anything
And the sobering perspective is there’s no absolute corrective
To guarantee this is the path we need
Bury a Dream
Watch it Grow
Question everything
Let go of what you can’t hold

I sing because I can’t help it
It gives me strength to know you’re there
I want your eyes, your ears
The collapsible space between us
I’m alive to fill the air
All the while I’ll know you’re there
I can’t pretend you don’t exist
Impossible as pretending I don’t exist

Faith is believing in all the answers even when they tear you apart
Bury A Dream
Watch It Grow
Question everything
Let go, Let go, Let go…

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RUN
I’ve got a bad feeling that it’s true
What they say about the other side
And I got a tendency to always run
But never hide

We stared defeat down into the bottom of its soul
We put back the pieces till we felt whole

So I stood in the canyon
And listened to
Echoes from the other side
Turns out the shadows on the wall
Were never really there at all
What we needed was always inside

If there’s no way through
We can build a bridge
If there’s no sunlight
We’ll set the sky on fire
Just left with dreams that could have been
Turning over and over in our heads
Over and over again

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I CAN SEE CANYONS
Canyon, can you help me out
I need a foot hold
I need solid ground
Let the water carve a path
Erode the things that made me whole
Draw a line across the sand
So you know exactly where I stand

Canyon, can you take me down
To the bottom
Where I can’t be found
I look up and all I see are
Miles and miles of sky staring back at me

Simple subtlety escapes me
A bridge across the sky to cut the great divide
Delusions of grandeur blur the line
Between who I am and what I need
I am holding my breath with every step I take
I'm holding on to very mistake I make
And I feel it coming down and I can’t escape
An endless canyon separates me
From who I am and who I want to be
What’s the measure of a man
If he can’t even stand on his own two feet

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LET THE SUN COME UP
Light bleeds in through the curtains and the window pane
And the door is nearly closed and nothing has changed
Up the stairs where the bed remains
The place where thoughts keep me awake
It's the sound of uncertainty
It's nearly sunrise and everything’s changed

Let the sun come up
Take it all in, I’m not afraid
Take all of me
Don’t let it fade away
Let the sun come up

In the moment, distance plays it games
And when it's over, only time can keep you safe
And it comes rushing out without any hesitation
Certain memories from far off destinations
It's nearly sunrise and some things never change

Let the sun come up
Take it all in, I’m not afraid
Take all of me
Don’t let it fade away
Let the sun come up